By Proud SeaBee Wife

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Format: 12 x 12
Category: Events / Military

I haven't had a chance to do a scrapbook page for my own books in a long time. I did some "therapy" scrapping today. LOL I hid the journalling behind the picture, and it opens up to reveal it. Not sure why .... cause I'm sharing the journalling anyway, but I wanted it to be not so "there in your face" for others to read. This was so hard to write ... I think I cried about 10 times while trying to get it out on to the paper.

Here's the journalling

Today it痴 only been 26 days since he left. Today February seems so far away. Today nothing is worth the time we値l lose with him. Today I have a hard time seeing how this is going to be all worth it. Today I知 angry that the war has taken him to such a horrible place. He値l miss both kids birthday痴 - again. Another first day of school & another back to school night. He値l miss another Christmas, and on the 電addy and me night, this mom will be the only mom there. Today holding our baby girl while she cried for daddy was just too hard ... but I did it. Today trying to explain in a positive way why daddy is gone again, is just too hard ... but I did it. Today spending another Christmas alone seems unbearable ... but I値l do it. Today I stayed in the house because seeing families together made it hurt too much. Tonight while eating dinner alone, I cried. When he does get to call, just a couple times a month, 15 minutes is all we have. 15 minutes to tell your husband 2 or 3 weeks of information, when all you can manage to find to say is I love you and I miss you 150 times. You search your brain for just the important of the important, yet the few things you knew were just so important last week, didn稚 seem to even make the top of the list this week. Today I知 jealous of the women who can lean on their husbands daily, whether it be good news or bad, whether it be picking up the children from school, attending the conferences, and helping pack their lunch. Today I hate the military. Today I just want him to wrap his arms around me and tell me everything will be ok ... but he can稚. Today I just want to be a normal mans wife. Being a Soldiers wife is too hard today.

Tomorrow I値l remember how proud I am to be an American Soldiers wife. But not today!